The title of the blog is what I want to scream right now. Or not. Life is just so damn weird.
This morning I learned that a dear friend; a good soul, a funny, talented, caring human dear was gone from this plane. What?! Yep, gone.
Learning about a death thru social media is so interesting because there’s no one in front of you to open their arms while you begin to cry. So I didn’t cry. I did tear up and sniffle a bit. Then I bit my lip and went on about my day. I made a few posts and comments online. I texted a few friends I knew would want to know. Then I went on with my scheduled day.
I left the last meeting of the day and the thought came into my head, “David can’t be dead!” And the rest of my brain said, “No, he is dead.” And then I cried. I cried all the way to my car and cried all the way home.
Later, I went downtown to drop off a piece of art for a show. I visited some friends opening a new gallery.They knew David too, so we did hug and shed a few tears. Then I visited another gallery, hit the grocery and came home.
I did my social media duties… “The new gallery is awesome” “Don’t miss the new show over there” “My friend , the artist is painting live over there ” and ” We all miss David at tonight’s festivities.”
And now here I am. With my joy over the new things happening, celebrating successes. And with my grief over the death of a friend.
I’m good at being this or that. But being both… happy and sad… that’s just weird. I guess there is a sense of balance in it. At any given point, life is neither all good or all bad. It’s really up to me to focus what I want to focus on.
And….god, I will miss my friend David Bowen, a kind, talented, sweet, cranky, good, fuckedup, and wonderful human being. Don’t worry David, someone will love Roxy. We will all miss you.